An Unexpected Turn of Events.

There are very few times I'm grateful for my obsessive compulsive disorder. When applied to work it can be a great tool but in most other aspects of my life my OCD is a nightmare. Fortunately enough for me I've recently learned how to use it to my benefit outside of work. I've put myself on a regimen. I wake and get out of bed at the same time now(without the aid of energy drinks which I feel I've been abusing), I eat breakfast, go to the gym or jog, start work from noon till 8 or 10 depending how much energy I have then detach myself from work as best I can and relax till bedtime at 3am giving me more then enough sleep for the following day. I live and die now to the alarms on my iPhone. I have become a health robot :-p I feel great. I'm off my meds now, being more social, quiting smoking. life is good right now. if I stay on the track I'm on by the time we move in August I'm gonna be in the best shape mentally and physically of my life. The last few days have been difficult sleep wise but it's something my body will have to get used to again. Having been dealing with an anorexia issue for a while now I have an amazing base to start with. Unfortunately, the meds I was on made it so that I had absolutely no interest in food whatsoever. It was just no longer a thought in my head and I could go 3 days before I even realized that I hadn't eaten anything. I lost ALOT of weight in a very short period of time and I was never a big guy to start with but at my lowest (which was very recently) I weighed 117lbs dropping almost 2lbs a week at the worst. I was going to end up in the hospital very soon if I stayed on that path. I have no wish to die from malnourishment. I had to do something so my body and mind have reacted as they always do with the primal "survival mode" as I call it. It applies to many aspects of my life but this is the first time its kicked in because of a very real worry of bodily harm. Survival mode can last years if "fueled" The trick now, is to keep this obsessive compulsive behavior fueled. I've spent soo long fighting my OCDs it's a weird feeling to give in to them like this. There's no worry, no anxiety, no mental struggle and no questions...this is completely logical. OCD is not a creature of logic. I'm just on the first few strides but I feel good about this. I feel productive.