Trying Times

The times, as of late, have been very trying. Life has thrown me soo many curve balls recently I've given up trying to catch them. We're moving in a few weeks to a new appartment. One that will allow us a dog. it's 1 of 2 things I have in my life to look forword to. The other is a job that if it works out the way I'm hoping could make things MUCH easier financially. I'm finding it hard to hope for the best because well, life has not been very nice to me as of late. Everything around me has been torn down and rebuild so many times I just cant believe that it wont be torn down again. I know that I have self worth issues. why else would I allow myself to live in this miserable life for as long as I have? I need to do something about it. This job will change everything. I'll finally have the resources to change things in whatever way I feel is best. The first of possibly many is getting a dog. although I've been going back and forth wondering if its even a good idea in the first place...at least until other things get fixed. Who knows, it could be the lubricant that helps fix somethings but it could be the complete opposite and I'm not just willing to bring an animal into the shit storm that is my life unless I KNOW that I cant supply them with the absolutle best life I can give them.