Stange Turn of Events

I'll start with the most drastic. Jay has decided that he does not want to go to Nova. To me it was a seemingly impromptu decision but apparently he's been thinking about this for a while now. I agree with his choice however. Nova U. is NOT a great school and when everything is said and done he would have walked out of there with a sub-par PhD and a quarter of a million dollars in debt. He's going to work on his application for next year or the following year which conveniently opens up time for the next drastic change in our lives. For anyone who knows me well knows that I was in a 3way relationship for a year. The third ended up being a loony toon but I digress. The relationship when it was good (which it was most of the time) was perfect in almost every way less the odd issue one has to deal with when dealing with a loon. It was completely balancing and complimentary and I miss the overwhelming support and love that once filled this place. Well, It seems that the stakes have been raised as of late. I wont disclose too much information about them till I seek permission to do so but It seems Jay and I found another couple interested in sharing their outwardly perfect relationship with us. I've known these guys for YEARS and they have always been a point of reference when thinking about perfect relationships. Ever since I met these guys (almost as long as I've known Jay)I've had deep, powerful emotions for them. They are one in a billion as far as I'm concerned and I feel honored that they want to see if things might progress into something more. There are very few people that truly understand what it is to be a man not held back by the judo-christian barriers of love. I'll never understand it for as long as I live. How can love be categorized into a box like that? To me love is all encompassing and fluid. I'm not tied to a single person the way most are. Maybe it's because I understand the emotion far better then most...maybe I'm just fucked up...Who knows. To me love is the willingness to sacrifice absolutely everything you are for the sake of another. There are many points of love in my life obviously Jay, My brother William, my Mother, my best friend Chris, my Starwood family The list goes on and on and I'm proud to say that the list continues to grow. The guys I spoke of earlier...I would gladly lay my life down for them should they ask....That's love.