What I'm Ment To Do......

Today's a little bit better. After the panic attack I had last night Kirnan came to talk to me. We know what we have to do to make this work the problem is that him and I expect the same thing from each other (more or less). We both wait for the other to make the move. It just ends up in a cyclical shit storm of negativity but we talked things out and although I can't speak for tomorrow, today was a much better day.

I had a photo shoot with a good friend and client last night as well. At the end of the session I had 197 RAW files. They came out great. I'm very proud of them. This just feels right. I feel like this is what I'm suppose to do with my life. I'm meant to capture people and things in time and space to share them with the world. I'm meant to be inspired by fetishes, fantasies or events and mold them into fanciful works of art. I was explaining to Kirnan last night how I come up with some of my pieces. The best way I could describe it is as reverse engineering. I see an image in my head of the final outcome my job is to reverse engineer it into the steps taken to produce it. I breath a sigh of relief when I see the image match the vision I have in my head. It's happening more and more. I can feel my ability to create grow every time I pick up my camera (affectionately know as: The Beast)