Last week I had a break through in therapy. The session consisted mainly of the one person I hold as the source of all my hate and anger, Trevor. Although therapy started me thinking about things it was an unlikely source that really cemented things in my head. Kirnan and I are watching a new show called Moon Light and at the very end of the 3rd episode the eldest vampire said something that just floored me. The following was so....valid and powerful:
"Two Buddhist monks were walking down a path together.
The first monk sees an elderly woman trying to cross a stream
he walks up to her, scoops her up and carries her across to the other side
the monks continue down their path for a mile or so when the second monk, obviously spitting mad turns to the first monk and says "You violated our code by carrying that woman across that stream. The first monk replies: "that may be so but you've been carrying her ever since".
If you understand this you can see how valid this is to me. I no longer harbor any hate for this man. I've been carrying him far to long. I will always have pity for him but I no longer hate him. I'm glad to be able to say that now. I never thought I would release him from the label I gave him: "The source of all evil" I feel sorry for him but I'm finally free of the hate I've carried for him.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Words of Wisdom From an Unlikely Source
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2 comments:
wow.. well I'm glad to hear you no longer hate Trevor. It only took a few months but I'm glad there's no more hate in the air.
Love ya,
Chris
I certainly commend you for your ability to be able to do that. I have a lot of negative feelings for some people that I just forget about in day to day until they happen to come up. I'm very happy for you Fox. Glad you're starting to feel better and awesome on Josh moving in! I'll be up to visit once all this shitty ass weather is done. I don't do well driving in it, or at night for that matter.
Much love. *Hugs*
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