hmmm....what I say about my experience in London. Sooooo many things happened. Most of which I cant yet talk about. Some are still alive and kicking and in the works and some things died one night in a London Pub. I wish more then anything I didn't have a self censor especially on my own god damn blog but unfortunately There are things that need to be done to ensure a safe voyage down a specific path. However I can talk about some things. The work I did in London was at The International British Motor Show @ Excel in London selling Mclaren Mercades and Ferrari merchandise. The work wasn't hard at all, I mean I'm well used to retail so it was familiar enough. I didn't get to see too much of the show. I was working 12 hours days for 2 weeks straight with only one day off which I spend with Jay tooling around London revisiting some of the places we saw last year and seeing some new ones. We had quite laterally the best sushi and miso I've ever had in my life that day. It's weird how you just happen upon these things. We were walking back from a museum and there it was. The cars at the show were VERY impressive. There were a bunch of street cars which didn't intrest me at all but there were a few concept cars that just blew me away.
This monster has heads up displays. infrared cameras all over the place instead of mirrors and a docking bay in the back bumper designed for 2 segways. Although I cant remember the specifics but the MPGs were WELL impressive as a hybrid hydrogen would be. There were cars all over the place like this though.
I got myself a new wallet and jacket while there...The wallet was bought straight out but the jacket was a dramatic mind fuck to say the least. Originally it was given to me by...lets just say someone. this person handed it to me and apologized for...something telling me I wasn't allowed to wear it till we got back...OK, I didn't ask why but OK... I though it was a really nice gesture to make at the time but about 3 days ago the boss comes up to me and casually mentions that we still need to sort the jacket out...."OK...Is it not already sorted?" I though but apparently it hadn't been paid for. so the boss man goes up to this person and asks who's paying for it and the fuck points at me and says "he is!" so I did. I wasn't about to play whatever game he was playing. I have no patience for it anymore and I certainly AM NOT going to put any MORE energy into it. This was just one example of this certain someone doing certain things to ruin things for a very long time....a few nights prior jay took the train up to London to spend the night with me....long story short Jason ended up punching this person in the head several times for doing something unspeakably stupid and insane. I've never seen Jay like that before. I didn't know he even had it in him. I was soo proud of him. The person on the other end of jays wrath deserved what he got by far. he's lucky he didn't move a muscle after jay hit him because I instantly went into fight mode and would have beat the shit out of him with jay if he had tried at all to respond or do anything but just sit there and take it like he did.
theres alot that I choose to not put in this blog for obvious reasons but I'll be happy to inform whomever would like to know the details in private....OK enough for now....I can already see the storm raging on in the distance but my wall is now fully protected...YAY! there may be a few cracks in it but I'm an emotional mason unlike any other. I'll write more later when I have the time and energy to do so. today I rest and ready myself for work tomorrow then off to dinner and drinks with a good friend.
Monday, August 4, 2008
Post London Update.
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You will tell anybody that asks, but will you inform me?
From the tone of your post I guess any hope of a meeting of minds is a lost cause, damn.
If you will not even talk to me I can hardly even attempt to say sorry.
I assume, as you are "planning" somthing that you are not going home. This means you are moving out, clearly withought me. That was always a horrific thought for me, you know that. I guess it is Craig, gosh.
A request for understanding, a second chance or compassion is going to fall on deaf ears I suspect. If either of you do feel like communicating, you know where I am.
I assume you wont post this on your blog and I would probably rather you did not.
Don't let this end like this, or at least, just don't laugh this off as some further stupidity on my part.
T.
You know I send 99.9% of the comments through no matter what. if you didnt want it out in the open then you definatly shouldnt have messaged me in the form of a comment on my blog.
ok, i have to step in here and have my say (its little Craig from down the pub fyi)
i can see why you'd be pissed at trev, and ill admit the guy needs to learn to vent his emotions properly instead of letting them blow when he gets drunk.
but
at the same time ive seen the way you've been treating him throughout your little exploration of england, namely like nothing more than your personal travel agent and tour guide, rather than a friend who opened there home to you,
like say...
did you ever stop to think how it might make him feel shagging one of his friends while he would be left downstairs on the sofa?
no?
and what you wrote was a perfect example of how you've been treating him. you don't talk to him all week and say you hate him then expect him to still give you an expensive jacket as a gift?
all Trevor wanted was a bit of recognition and attention for his efforts, and though he vented in a totally bad way, i still think you and jay should have think about why he did it instead of what he did.
thats all ive got to say, trevors my friend and im not just gonna sit buy and let two guys make his life miserable.
and please at leased take down the trevors message, posting it was just spiteful and you know it
first and foremost little one...you havent a clue whats really going on. ALL of the information you get comes from someone who A) hasnt a clue about how life works and B) doesnt even know himself whats been going on even though its been MORE then obvious to everyone else around us. You think you know whats going on here but you don't and neither does he. YOU are quite litterally one of his only friends left because he's horrible to everyone else in his life. You only know a snippet of the story. I know trevor FAR better then you do so please dont take what I write here lightly. Trevor is not the person you think you know. although I am glad you commented....gives me an idea of what he's been telling others about us....and he hopes for redemption.....right.
then please enlighten me, what is it that i should know about trevor that i am kept in the dark about.
im open to hear the other half of whats going on
and he hasnt been telling me these thing, hes always coming down on himself and speaks of you and jay rather favorably, my conclusions are from what i see, not what he tells me
unfortunatly I know that's not the case concidering ive said VERY little about him on here and this would be the only place you'd get this information from... If not from Trevor. Trevor is a very disturbed person who doesn't have a clue what love or friendship is. He also doesn't thing that he's done anything wrong to us. I know he tells people that we're horrible to him but the fact of the matter is that even in the face of all the negativity and meaness and monsterious nature we saw in him we still dove into his life head first and was there for him and he let us down big time. You think this is about a jacket or a phone. Believe me it's not. This goes much deeper then you know. I once saw something in him... A glimmer of hope for greatness but I was proven very wrong. I'm very sad things turned out like this. I wish they hadn't but you can't force someone to see when they are so obviously blind. All the luck in the world with your future encounters with trev little one. Maybe you can reach him where I obviously failed.
actuly that's where your wrong. He's always beating himself up all the time, he goes on and on about how it's all his fault. He's never said that yourbmeam to him and that's his main issue: the man has no self esteem.
The reason I felt I had to step in and say something here is because he won't stick up for himself. And in my experience fights are rearly the fault of one side alone.
Your right Trevor does have something beter inside of him, and it is a pitty if your not around to see it.
my turn.. Fox, you KNOW me, please READ what I'm going to write. One of you, is clever, but not clever enough. One of you is clever, and clever enough. And ONE of you is just annoying. This in no way answers any questions for those who make assumptions. I love you, Fox. I have made my own assessment of things. And I'll express my opinions with no riddles all in due time. For now, you are in my prayers, ALL of you.
See...thats where your very wrong craig, Trevor will always outwardless express thats its all his fault but in all accuallity he hasn't a clue what is his fault. He can punch a friend in the head or smash their phone or attempt to light their person effects on fire and still havent a clue that anything wrong was done. He assumes he's wrong only because others tell him that he is. thats why his appologies mean nothing to me anymore. He's always sorry that people are upset not because he believes he's done anything wrong. Yes, the one commen ground in those instances is drink which he gladly uses as a very convenient excuss which I have never excepted. Drink tends to releave one of their "filters" so that the real person comes out and shines. Trevor speaks very well but truely believes very little of what he says. The reason he wont spick up for himself is because he doesnt know what he should stick up for. he doesnt know that wrongs were done to certain people. It's very nice that you feel the need to come to his aid because well...he needs it right now. He's in a very bad place right now. He's lost alot of friends due to the person he's become and I'm sure it'll only get worse unless he heeds the advise I gave him a few days ago but I know he wont...as he said... "They'd take away my GUN liscence" It seems his priorities are set and very misplaced. If you knew the real situation and what I've done for Trev and how much I've bled for him you'd e singing a different tune. but thats not the case and I don't blame you from that I just offer one bit of advise. If you plan on "taking him on" as we did...be ready for a world of hurt...or maybe not...maybe your a better person to do so. Maybe your able to reach him better because he doesnt love you like he does us I dont know. just be carefull little one you have soo little experience in life I'd hate to see him turn you into something.....different. be safe. Josh, You and I will talk in depth very soon hopfully.
Hey Fox,
XD
^_^
That is all.
*licks*
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