Today's been a really shitty day so far...and it's only 4pm. The last 2 days have been spent in a DEEP depression and VERY homesick. I miss Jon soo much. Jay and Trevor left early this morning for an event called Goodwood. It's some sort of auto show or so I've been told. I wasn't up to going. I'm not feeling right. I feel soo drained. emotionally and physically. I'm getting to the end of my rope. There's soo much to worry about here and soo much to tip toe around...I just don't have the energy for it anymore. I wanna just curl up in a ball and sleep. I know I'm kicking myself in the nuts by expressing this in my blog. Certain people will take things the wrong way or read into things and I'll be spending the next few days explaining myself. I don't care anymore. I'm tired of tip toeing through a mine field I'll never be able to cross and I refuse to censer myself in my own blog in fear of a misunderstanding. Mine fields SUCK!
3 comments:
*big hug!*
No explanation necessary, bro. You're in my thoughts.
You have the ability to make it through everything and get what you want. You just need to figure out how to get your head up and keep it there. You can do more than you think you can.
keep your head up nick nick. try your hardest to enjoy england. it is where you love to be. its hard being away from someone you love for so long but in time you will see each other again. you just gotta take what you can get for now and appreciate it. love and miss you nick nick :)
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