Today has been a really shitty day. I'm incredibly home sick, incredibly depressed and starting to think thoughts I don't wanna be thinking...I gave up SOOOO much to come here. I wanna make this work more then anything but there are certain things in the way of that right now...I don't wanna be considering going home after less then a week here.
I talked to Jon earlier today. It was soo nice to hear his beautiful voice again. I miss him soo much it physically hurts.
My computer still hasn't arrived yet. I really hope it gets here soon. I cant stand Jay's laptop sometimes. I appreciate the fact that he lets me use it but its nothing like my 'puter. I don't even know where I'd put it once it gets here. We have barely enough room to walk in here. we have the contents of 2 lives, an entire apartment and Trevor's figures and toys in this room.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Ehhhh
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Hi baby, Mama here. I'm so sad to hear that you are feeling down! We all MISS YOU very much here too!Like Josh said in the other blog comment, I do read your blogs everyday! I hope that things go better for you very soon.I wish that I could be there right now to hug you and take away all your sadness and worries!! I talked to Josh recently,he is such a sweet angel!! You have some wonderful friends!! About the foods that you took pix of, WOW !! thoses brits must think sexual alot!!! The pix made me laugh! What the hell are they translated into American terms? Meatballs?? Hot Dogs?? WHAT ??? Bangers and balls!! Good Heavens!!!!! Will TTY soon baby. I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!! Mama ....
What you did, you did for a reason.
Don't forget that.
*hug*
i share a trailer meant for two people... It's aways crowded, and i regret moving here sometimes. but i made a commitment, and i intend to keep it, and work hard to get to where i want to be. Expect things to get harder before they'll get any better. you are strong! you WILL do this, don't give up! We all miss you, but we are al there, backing you up every step of the way (YOU TOO JASON!). I love you.
I can move my toys if that is a problem, just ask.
hey nick nick. sorry i havent got to talk to you in a while. theres barely any reception where my grandparents live in louisiana. i wish i coulda helped you out with your sale but sadly timing was bad. its not the same here without you but we will all survive because you are where youve wanted to be. love you
Hi Fox,
Just want you to know that I'm reading your post everyday and sending you lots of loving vibes. I'm going through the same thing you are as I moved to Austin, leaving all my friends and the comfort of home. I have to just keep thinking that I'm expanding not loosing. It's hard especially missing physically being without someone. It is a like a physical tearing away and painful. I wish the teleporters were up and running. I was telling Emily that the only place that I have ever gone and felt at home right away and the whole time there is at Starwood. I have to remember that it felt this painful and lonely when I moved to Massachusetts and 13 years later how comfortable it felt, the place and people that I deeply feel in love with. Baby steps asking yourself "what can I do for myself in this moment to feel good".
Love you and Jay,
Rena
i miss you a lot nick!
<3 you
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