Watch out England

I've recently made the decision to move to England. Ever since I can remember I've always had an affinity for the United Kingdom. Last year my friend, Jay and I went to London and had the time of our lives. I've never felt more at home then I did in the time I spent in England.

Our good friend, Trevor from East Sussex recently spent 2 weeks with us and to be honest we both believed that at the end of the 2 weeks we would be completely and totally sick of him. That defiantly wasn't the case. Trevor is a very difficult person to understand and sometimes deal with. He has a very unusual way of twisting normal conversation into something negative. He's a very paranoid guy who never believes that anything positive could happen to him and as a result it holds him back from many things in life but he very quickly became a very important part of both of our lives (although he'd NEVER let himself believe that anyone could think of him in such a high regard) Hopefully I'll be spending a lot more time with him in the English countryside.

Moving to a different country is a lot more difficult then one might believe. There is SO much to take into consideration. I've lived in New York State all my life so this is a BIG step for me. I've told almost everyone in my life with one exception, one of the loves of my life, Jon. I'm scared to death to tell him that I'm moving away. I'm fully expecting the worse...he WILL hate me forever for doing this to him but I realized recently that I've been spending years making excuses for why I couldn't do what I really wanted to do. There was always some wall of my own design holding me back from really living my life be it Jon, my Mama, ect. Don't misunderstand, I'm not running away from anything. If I could I would take my Mom, Jon and all of the friends I'll be leaving here I would but I cant and I also can't ask anyone to uproot their life for me, because I feel I need to live in a different country. The coming days will be VERY difficult for me.